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I transfered my poetry thread from TORC over here and intend to keep it to express the dark side.

Any comment, poem or other production of yours in more than welcome.

written the 16th of may 2003

Bitter
like the grey morning
when the birds are silent
and the sheets are cold

Bitter
like the almonds

Bitter
like the light poison
when we lie to each other
in the abyss of a smile

Bitter
like the almonds

Bitter
like the hammering headache
when the madness is over
and fear comes to stay

Bitter
like the almonds

Bitter
like the nails in palms
when screams are just echos
of our empty hearts

Make me bitter
Count me with the almonds

written the 24th of may 2003

A walk on the blade of a knife
Every step is a cut in open, salty, bleeding, hurting dreams
Every milimeter is an abyss of pain
Putting one foot in front of the other like a machine
Walking towards the abbys.
Painful
Thus shall be your way, your very own
Via Dolorosa
Every step a crime
And yet I love you
Through this breathing wrap I love you
Looking forward to the next step, the new pain
Wait for the abyss
Touch the fear
Every step is a danger of being seduced
By the sweetness of the pain
Walk on the blade of a knife
Better than through a field of mines,
My princess.

written the 25th of may 2003

Tears are the lost sea
Foam floating on our faces
Infinty flows into dirty handkerchiefs
Salt glews to our skin

Missing
Is the wideness of the Sea
The Storm, the wind, the sun
The Life
Like thunder black waves
Run down the cheeks
Lighting is flashing in veiled eyes
Hope is sinking like a ship.

written the 27th of may 2003

Where is the blue time?
The time that you steel
From the eyes of the wolves
That you tear out of their fangs.

Where is the blue time?
Wich can suck up the drips
Of my heart blood and become
Violet like violence of violons.

Where is the blue time?
The wolves tear it into pieces
Little remnants of flesh
Last echoes of your love.

Where is the blue time?
Gone in the darkness
Of your lies and kisses
It has never been.

written on june 2nd, 2003

The pain falls
With the rain
From the sky
On my skin
Sucks a way
Into my pores
Mingles with my blood
Flows in my veines.

Now that the pain
Is a part of me
The clouds vanish
With a sadistic grin
And the sun will
Burn me to death
Thirst and nothing
But salt on my lips.

You are my weather goddess
You are the rain
You are the sun
You are the day and the night
You are the air
Kill me slowly
So I can see your smile
When I die.

written on the tenth of june 2003

There is no hope
Just the emptiness
behind your smile
And the pale taste
of your kiss
to hide that we are
lost and doomed

There is no hope
in your caress
It opens the wounds
and the tasteless blood
of my heart
drips on the ground
leaving dirty spots

There is no hope
It is cold and dark
under the blankets
And the hollow shimmer
of your eyes
is black like the morning
that you have stolen.

written on the 12th of june 2003

Sweet sixteen
Floating on the water,
The shimmering reflects
Of the sunlight
So alone that even
The air is their
Weapon and breathing
An act of defense.

Sweet sixteen
Floating in the water
The gliding grasp
Of the water lilys
To the dream
Of ultimate freedom
In the arms
Of the water.

Sweet sixteen
Floating in the water
The fingers swollen
And the skin cold
The body is blue
The sirene of loneliness
Has come home.

written the 13th of june 2003

Stardust

Rub your dreams on my skin
Let the soft powder glide through my fingers
I desire you so much that breathing hurts me
When I think about it.

Not live any more, be free from the weight of my existence
Be free
I dream myself in the silver chain that you carry
So close to your heart, so close to your skin
I dream myself as a melody, walking in the air,
loosing me in your thoughts, unknown
I dream myself as ink, forming words under your will
expressing your thoughts
I dream myself, dead, dying, fearless, without any strings.

Princess of stars, make me dust.

written on june 16th 2003

Pale Mother
the Ukraine
calling with her bleak voice
waving with her white eyes
the marguerites spreading
under her feet
like a poison.
Weary of the wars
and the sounds of the
hammering boots on
the beautiful earth.
Pale Shelter
Pale Taste
Pale Air
Of my brave mother.

Let me leave
from your cold embrace
of winter
from your burning kiss
of summer.
Pale mother,
the Ukraine.

written on june 17th 2003

Sulamith, Sulamith
dig me a grave in the air
where I can find you
light like a dream
in the wideness
of the air.

Sulamith, Sulamith,
walk with your golden feet
on my body,
feed me with smoke
feed me with dust
of my grave

Sulamith, Sulamith
your kiss of ahses
tender as the touch
of my airborn grave
where we will be not close
But gone.

Sulamith, Sulamith
shoot with your words
bullits in my heart
make me fall
into the grave
Your only gift to me.

written on june 19th 2003

I have been dreaming of you
So intensely
that the sheets remember.
But my body is empty
Be here
Be me
Kiss me
Hold me
Touch me
Eat me
Drink me
Break me
Bruise me
Rape me

Just don't
Leave me

Alone.

written on june 22nd 2003

The rain
Has become a blade
Falling from heaven
Right in my heart
Cutting it in pieces
Leaving nothing.

Have I not wished to dance with you?
Have I not desired your touch with
Your hands of bones?
Have I not called for your kiss
With all my strength?

Death
Come and dance with me
Welcome me in your home
Tear out the rain
And the blade
Don't leave me
To be condemned to
Life.

written on june 24th 2003


They close the doors
For you are leprous
You are sick and odd
You will never enter.

They close the eyes
For you are the light
You hurt and burn
You want to be it

They close their hearts
For you are one of them
You lie and smile
You are a hypocrite.

written on june 26th 2003

When your soul walks away
And leaves
You
Alone in the cold.
When even the sun
Is filled
With tears
And only a stone

When your soul walks away
And you understand
That nothing
shines anymore
When even music
Has become
Just noise
Where are you?

written on june 28th 2003

Sometimes
Water does not calm
Your thirst
Bread does not feed
The sun does not shine
Snow is not white

Sometimes
Sugar is not sweet
And lemons not bitter
The phone does not ring
Dreams don't come true
Love does not heal

Sometimes
The world is bleak
Each word is senseless
The day is a torture
Your voice is silence
Wounds don't hurt

Sometimes
You're alone.

written on 30th of june 2003:

Fly away
Close to the sun
Close to the sky
Close to the melodies of the birds
Close to you.

Fly away
Towards the dawn
Towards the warm
Towards the zephyr in the air
Towards you.

Fly away
From the earth
From the water
From the heavy touch of life
From you.

Fly away
And fall into the deep
Melt my wings
Don't catch me
Not you.

written on july 8th 2003

Ashes to Ashes
So
You have thrown me in the fire
In the water
In the void
In your arms.

Dust to Dust
So
There is no escape from the end
From the lie
From the grave
From the use.

Lie to lie
So
You have taken from me
Your words
Your eyes
Your dreams

I need you
Even with a blade
In your words
With a bite
In your rhymes.

You made me
Ashes.

written on july 14th 2003

Underneath my skin
Lies a different story
Underneath your touch
Lies a different glory
Underneath my hope
Lies no victory.

I'm the one you chose
I'm your territory.
I will always bleed
And make you worry
I will always die
And be a memory.

written on july 14th too:

I long for this moment
When your eyes become hard
And enter
Into my desire
Like into an open house.

I long for this moment
When your red fingernails
Scratch my skin
Tear out my heart
When you savour it
And with every bite
You lips get redder
And you more beautiful.

I long for this moment
When your body
Is my soul
And when hell
Is like heaven.

I long for this moment
When you switch the light
In my brain
This moment which never comes
A dream only
Melting the ice behind my eyes
To tears.